Thursday, October 28, 2010


Yeee..haaa.. Long time this blog became untouched! I pretty busy with my working stuff and other life's business -- yeah, I just wanna look little pretentious..hahaha... So, how's life? I'm really being hopeful that's your daily life is suite you just fine. Anyway I found this inspiring quote by Bob Marley, it's pretty much interpret in what most people heart and mind. -- I'll give it to you after my blabber...haha..

Long story short, these couple days I short of missed on what's truly going on in the world around me. I just don't feel engaged. I worked, I finished it, I poured my blood and tears into it (yeah, I'm really aggravated it...wakakakakak...) then I went home, feel asleep and feel nothing about it. Numbness, just like a damn robot. It's psychotic really.... And what's pretty shocked me that I'm on a point where I don't want anything, simply don't want anything (in career or possession). Sometimes I just forced myself to bought a stuff that I don't really need or pretend to cheer up on successful work project. The cruelest part of me is simply just don't give a shit of anything all around me (and myself).

All those feelings accumulated to longing my childhood memories. Especially my Elementary and Junior High School moment. I'm so much missed it so much longing it so-fuckin'-much! The moment I met all my girls, who's right now become my sister of soul (well, I guess they're more than that, they're sort of like my boyfriend without sexual tension...hahahaha) the first-stupid boy crush, cheated on exam, being grounded, being a bitch (well, I guess I always had bitchy tendency, It's in the blood, baby...hehe ^_^) You name it, all those curiosities and first-time experience always been a perfect drugs of choice for my adrenaline and my endorphin. Feel so God damn nice and intoxicating.

Hopefully soon enough my numbness will be gone. As I wrote earlier I'll give you those Marley's quote...enjoy, peeps!

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
-Bob Marley