I Just Feel Like It

Maybe I'm one of those people, who's use less logical reasoning when chose something. I believe my intuition. Though, it wasn't always right but it never lies. Of course, there's a moment when I'm doubting my intuition. In life, there's too many choices (and decision) when you have to put aside your intuition a little while and let your logical mind to lead you. But..... It didn't work, not for me. That's not how I roll, man.... Hehehe....

When I'm involving too many logical reason as a basis on my decision, it leads me to confusion. My head became chaotic. It seems there's too many things I have to measured. For almost 23 years of my life, most of my decision based on my "I just feel like it" moment. My high school choice (I switched from private school to public school after I spent 10 years in private school), my college choice (I chose the most unknown college for "common" society), my decision for "only" took diploma degree instead of bachelor degree and when I decided A.J. Backstreet Boys is hotter than Nick Carter... Hehe.. Anyway, you got my point, right?

Some of my friends and some of my parents friends sometimes questioning my decision. I assumed (see? intuition talks... ^_^) They believe most of time that I took impulsive decisions on everything in my life. Even it called "Intuition" it never impulsive, not with my intuition. My intuition is a convincer...hehe.. Now I sound like Sherlock Holmes. The thing is... I just know what I'm doing, what I'm gonna do, how I'm gonna do it, and I just feel like it. I know, this style of decision-making isn't last forever. The older you get, the more reason you need. "I just feel like it" reason won't suit you when you decided to quit your job, when you propose to someone, when you switch your spiritual belief, even when you decided not get married at 20's. Even you're the one who lives your life, there are still many involvement in our life. Your social-peer, your best buddies, your society and not to mention ultimate power of our parents opinion. Especially, there's always a social standard you have to follow and if you don't, they'll talk. And most of these talks neither ear-friendly nor heart-friendly. Maybe you just need to balancing this method, the logical ones with "just feel like it" method. Or...... Try my forte, I usually make my "just feel like it" reason seems so convincing and prospectiveness.

Anyway, even so I'm a very intuitive, I'm still look both ways when I cross the street, I'm still put some logical mind for never wearing fishnet stocking and do before-married sex... But...well, if Zachary Quinto asked me to maybe I'll change my mind...wakakakakak... The bottom line is, whatever method you'll be using in decision-making, you always have to be the person who's lead the way. Not your parents, not your best buddy and not even God (that's what makes the terrorist).

Well, hopefully this post got added value for your insight ^_^

Alright, enough for the blabber...
Gotta back to real world.
Toddle loo.

Absurd Quote?

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life… But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin’ else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you’ve got heroin?*

*) Quoted from Mark Renton, Trainspotting, 1996

Jakarta's Traffic Mystery

Selain misteri penciptaan dunia yang masih terus diperdebatkan sama banyak ilmuwan, kayaknya misteri kemacetan Jakarta juga wajib untuk terus dipertanyakan. Bisanya emang cuma sampe level dipertanyakan doang, soalnya gue pesimis kemacetan Jakarta bisa dikurangin. Sama pesimisnya gue bisa solat lima waktu dalam seminggu...Wakakakak.. I've been realistic here!!! Eniwei, tadi pagi nih, ya.... Entah ada apaan atau kenapa Jalan Suryo yang biasanya selalu lancar tiba-tiba macet aja, gitu. I'm stuck for over than half an hour!!! Kejadiannya pas di arah keluar belokan dari Jalan Senopati. Gue sempet wondering apa ada kecelakaan atau apalah, tapi ternyata gue terlalu naif kalo berfikir demikian. Sampe ujung jalan menuju ke arah Tendean, gue berusaha mencari tahu apa sih penyebab kemacetannya. Surprisingly, there's nothing... It's like yelling "Lagi pengen macet aja, buuuuuu" +dengan gaya bencong+ Way to go to ruined my morning!

Nyampe kantor pastinya gue telat, which I hate it so much. I don't like being late, it's like againts my way of life or something.... wakakakak...

Omong-omong soal macet, gue lagi suka banget nonton serial House M.D. (iye, kagak nyambung emang...) It's so wit and charming, recommended banget! It's like CSI but set in hospital. Theme-nya adalah solving medical mystery gitu. Yang sebenernya bikin gue addict banget adalah karakter Dr. Gregory House yang eksentrik. He's witty, sarcastic, anti-social, brilliant, medical maverick, and also a pain killers-addict (yeah, that's right) But, all of his vices also being his virtues. Charming character, indeed! Karakter Dr. House diperankan dengan oke banget sama aktor Hugh Laurie. Famous quote dari Dr. House (yang juga selalu dia ulang di tiap episode) adalah "Everybody lies". Tontonan yang pas kalo lo nyari serial dengan dialog yang smart disertai dark humor.
Enough blabbering, I guess
Gotta back to real life.
Toddles.

1 Week and 2 Days of Redemption Report

Yuhhuuuuu....

First of all, I would like to say "Happy Eid Mubarak" to everyone. How your one week of wondrous holiday? Mine? Pretty delightful, actually although I got sick for two days (what a waste of holiday!) Since my grandma lived nearby, my family and I didn't practice what-so-called Indonesian famous tradition a.k.a Mudik... Thanks to that, because there's lot chaos and death in those mudik thingie. Even so, I'll be excited if I got a chance to do long-hours journey across the provinces...hehe.

Anyway, a little update about my sexy iPod. He's doing just fine, guys.... Got a new sleeve for him, a very nice iSkin Evo4 Duo in PopStar color (yep, he's look lil' bit kinky now...hehe).
Speaking of Ied Mubarak, I felt there's no something really festive in this year celebration. The Holy Day of Muslim people seems just passed by like a breeze. I remember when I was a kid, I always feel of excitement every time Ied Mubarak came closer. Long period of school holiday, new clothes, new stuff and of course, being money-grubbing to my uncles and other older relatives....Wakakakak (pardon my exaggerated term) This year I got excited for Ied Mubarak just because of one week holiday which I bet those holiday will be my longest stripping free-time ever!!! Bought lots of unnecessary stuff and tons of DVD. I bought a cute-purse or in another word I bought a children wallet...hehe. This purse got this cute cat image and plenty of compartment....cutieeeeeeeeeee.....

Also bought tons DVD, since I'm so rarely to do my favorite marathon watching. And I also discovered this unlikely fairytale love story starred by Franka Potente (known for her role opposite Matt Damon in The Bourne Identity) title The Princess and the Warrior (Der Krieger und die Kaiserin) The story is about a psych-ward nurse named Sissi, who's fall in love with small time criminal named Bodo (sorry for the name, man.. It's German.... Wakakakak...) who's save her on a car accident. Sissi happened to believe that both of them are destined to each other. She began to stalk him in order to make him believe that they meant for each other (yeah....psycho big time..wakakakak) Even though, Bodo told her that they don't meant fo each other and pushed her away. They constantly met in peculiar circumtances such as on a bank robbery (which happened to be Bodo as the bank robber). If you fond to film contain with peculiar stuff and odd sense, this movie is definitely for you. Totally recommended! You gotta watch it! (note: pretty similar with "Love Me If You Dare" only darker and less-surreal).

Okey dokey, blabbering times up!! Gotta back to work.
I'll see you soon
Bye.

Have a nice day wherever you are.....

On-The-Move

Yes, I am indeed.... I'm on-the-move planning so much. I finally decided to move back to my parents house this month. Since my office new policy stated there'll be no more overtime-working again (speaking of company financial-reducing act, duh?) Which is means my office hours will ended 5.30 PM everday. Nice.. Justice rules!! So, I think, I could manage BSD-Kemang-BSD everyday. Because there's no use being "anak kost" again. Since I'm easily to get bored everytime I went home early, stranded alone and got nothing to do at all. It seems my overtime-working changed my body-cycle or something. My brain constantly working until 12 AM-or more and it sucks if you got nothing to do at all. Can you imagine any constructive activity due 5.30 PM until 12 AM when you all alone without any human being beside you? Mmmm... I tend to be suicidal if I'm alone...wakakakakak. Plus I missed "ngelamun" activity on my way home or vice versa. With iPod played smoothly in my ear, sitting on window side of the bus, watching traffic jam outside and my head's ready to flown away from reality. Nice...

Sometimes, I picked up couples random awesome ideas during that constructive activity..hehe.. Well, maybe I just love being only with my thoughts. What I hate is when someone doing chit-chat with me while I'm on the bus. Not all people maybe, what I meant is, people you don't expect to meet. Like what-so-called annoying old friend who's bragging about their successful or conquering-the-world-type of story. It's not mean that I don't like listen to other people's story of life. It supposed to be my "me" time and it just annoy me when someone ruins my sacred moment. Anyway, life isn't supposed to be told, it has to be walked in it. You can told about your life when you already have grandchildren. Feel freely bragging about your conquering-life story. You're only live for 20-something years of life, what kind of life you already have anyway? Well, except you've got bitten with superpower spider or something..wakakakakak.

Now, practically still got no job to do. All my works still on a waiting list for client approval. Sometimes, I wonder why it took a long time of approval for such a very simple design like x-banner. I mean, it just a template, people! Same layout, same image and the only differences is the merchant's benefit. +sigh+

All right, then.. See you on the next post.
I'll post my goodbye-notes of my rent-room...hehe..
Toddles.

I've Just Destroyed My A-Month-Old iPod

+nangis darah+
monyet.kampret.sontoloyo.geblek.bego.bego.bego.bego.bego.bego
Baru aja sebulan, gue udah (as always) broke anything I have. F-U-C-K!!!!!
Kronologis menyedihkan ini adalah semalem seperti biasa gue lagi asik-asik aja gitu masukin video sama film baru ke iPod gue. Terus pas tadi pagi gue nyalain, I sense something weird about my sexy black 120 gigs. Pertama, ada beberapa Cover Album yang gak ke-detect sama si iPod, gue dengan sotoy-nya sok berpikir "ah, paling nih gara-gara sync-nya gak bener di windows gue" tapi setelah itu, I sensed something really really wierder, "kok, lagu-lagunya suka ke-skip sendiri" Wahhhhhhhhh....ini pertanda emang iPod gue udah kenapa-napa. Apalagi pas gue masuk menu Cover Flow, cover art-nya banyak yang gak ke-detect dan parahnya ada beberapa yang gambarnya kayak gambar TV rusak, gitu!!!!!!! WTFOMG!!! What s shitty shitty thing!!!!!!!!! I've already reset it, it works but my iTunes couldn't detect my iPod!!! How am I gonna restore it, huh????!!!!

Alright, I need to cool off my head for a while I even couldn't concentrate to post this. +sigh+
Panic attack big time.

Counting Down Part 2.

Yuhuuuuuuuu........

I'm back again for another blabbering and grumbling. How are you doin' so far on this lovely almost-noon time? Me? Still counting down the days to the weekend of course! Can't hardly wait for Idul Fitri holiday, my office will give us one wonderous week of holiday!! What a wonderful time it will be, huh? Last night after boring big time at office, I spent a leisure time with my after work partner-in-crime, Icut on Plaza Senayan. I totally got tons of fun, totally paid my boring moment at the office. We went for sushi and watch "The Proposal". For love of God.... I think, I won't get enough to see stripped Ryan Reynolds in my life. My head and heart couldn't stop yelling "I WANT MORE, I WANT MORE, I WANT MORE!!!!" And again, I wish I could bought him for me...HUAHAHAHA. Ryan Reynolds for one, please! The movie is totally entertaining and funny, the whole people in theater laugh for all the jokes and stupid things Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds did. And I also craved an ankle-boots on ZARA, speaking of another consumerism debit card swipe this weekend.

Wait, my pray is answered, I got job to do!
I'll guess I'll see you, then
Bye.